BYE BYE DADDY

so why do you keep putting my family thru this pain?
you have a 14 year old boy who looks up to you, a women who wants to give you the world plus more, and a 18 year old girl that love you and considers you as a father. or did at least. i dont understand. how could this addiction be sooooooooooooooo much more important than a "family". we have given you everything we possibly can or could. we have offered you help. we have gone on long exausting getting our hopes up drives to the slums of washington and back searching for you praying that we would see you walking ont he street or sleeping in a church just to know that you were ohk. i dont understand it. and probably never will. but until the day i do, i dont need this. neither does my mother or my little brother for that matter. you have come and made my mother mad as hell/broke down, my little brother bitter toward any man that may come in and fix things in our family, and you have left me with my hopes up and just not giving a fuck about anything of the such. you once told me "you can do anything you want to do. all you have to do is keep going". so why cant you take your own advice? why cant you just let us help you? i know that my mother is not superwomen, sista soulja, or no rosa barks. but she is someone who has open arms, a open heart, and an open mind trying to fix what you have torn up.

so when the day comes that YOU figure out who YOU really are, i hopw shit works for you.
until then, i will remain with my i dont give a fuck attitude, because i will NOT make the mistake of letting another "MAN" come into my life, and walking back out

have a nice fucking day