when you cant handle anything anymore. when you wanna just say fuck it and leave. when you know youve hurt the person again and again because you love someone else, it just turns into habbit. you cant help it. you cant. its not on purpose. buh at the same time its not on accident. it just...happens. i didnt mean to get you caught up with me. my problems. my issue after issue. it was never my intention to let you fall so deep when im just fighting with my mind and heart if i should even take the risk and jump. so yes im just watching you fall. i cant help it. heartbreaker. not my intention, buh it is what it is to a point. buh what you have to understand, is that this is my life. my life is all over the place, has many problems, and yes i cant handle it sometimes. buh i make it thru. whether i want to or not. and no you cant help, you cant make everything better. doesnt matter "what i really deserve" or not. it just is. thank you for your concern, trying to help, and lack of accomplishment. buh i gotta keep moving whether you are there or not. its to much, its never gonna get better. maybe just maybe oneday, buh right now, it wont. i will get worse and you will fall and hit alot harder than you thought you would. remember was never my intention, you just got caught up in my world. and if i were you ;; i would pull the parashoot before its to late..
